excuse me?

Don't have much time, but wanted to get some stuff down before I forget it. Like Ben's aunt says, " I have a serious case of C.R.S" Can't Remember Shit. Talking about shit, right now I feel like it. I'm running on fumes, 4 hour of sleep, and I'm pretty sure I'm technically still drunk. Last night for Chris' birthday we went to a show, Cesar's, Roscoes, Cocktail (strippers), and Charlie's.

Chris Casey, who has been in Chicago visiting me this whole week, is going back home today. awww, much sadness. I love when people come to visit, because it reminds me how fucken cool Chicago is. I saw 2 shows this week, went to all the gay bars, etc... I work down town and forget how awesome it is. It's like i don't look up anymore or something.

Anyway, I'm so happy he was here and it was so much fucken fun. What a great way to start the year, right? Actually my New Years lasted for seven days.

New Years is always a very emotional time for me. I think it comes from my mom who always made New Years a HUGE deal. Beside all these crazy ass things she did for New Years: red underwear (told me, not showed me), throw money out the door (which our neighbors loved), grab suitcases and run around the block (she said it would bring travel into your life for the new year). New Years was always a time for renewal. A second chance. A time to reflect, move forward, and take the path towards a better life. To change something or somethings for the better.

Much to her credit our lives did get better and better every year. I continue this tradition. So, I'm excited for what's to come this year and to figure out how I can work towards becoming a better person, boyfriend, actor, director, colleague, porn star.

This week i've been recognized twice for the last show I did, Judy and Katy. Just yesterday while watching BARE at the bailiwick; a rock musical about gay boys in catholic school. And on Saturday.

So i'm at Sidetracks on Saturday after a 2 pitchers and shots at Cesar's and shots at our apt on the way to Sidetracks. I was with Katelyn Smith, who was visiting from OH, Manille, Clerick, and Ben. Ben and I ran into people we knew and talked to them for a while, basically, the point is: good times were being had by all. So i'm coming out of the bathroom and this guy (not cute at all) bumps into me (he was wasted beyond) and says, in the gayest voice ever, "Ohh my god, you're so fat" ::walks away::

I've had a few so I follow and confront him, "Excuse me? Oh yeah, bitch, let's go outside and I'll SHOW you how fucking fat I am asshole." Mind you this has never happened to me before. So his friend whom was cute started defending him, "oh my god, i'm soooo sorry he's so drunk...I'm so so sorry, please don't hurt him, he...oh wait, were you in Katy and Judy? You were awesome..." I was just like, "ahh..yeah, umm ::tears from being called a fat ass running down my face:: I was...actually in.. ::kinda smiling because ive been recognized:: ..I was in, the....show.....um, thanks for...coming."

It was so nuts. I didn't know weather to laugh cry or shit. Eventually I just said, "just keep you friend away from me cause i'll fucken kick his ass, i was raised in the Mexican ghetto, I can fight."

The other show Chris and I went to go see was Good Boys and True, a new play at the Steppenwolf theatre about, again, gay boys in a religious private school. I don't know, it was a theme this week. I'm on the way to the bathroom and I ran into Santiago Sosa, one of my B.F.A. acting buddies from Southwest Texas State, who I hadn't seen in like 4 years. It was so fucken Krazy. we had drinks after the show and caught up, it was so great. He was a very good friend and still is. Really it was like we didn't' miss a beat. We talked and laughed like we had just hung out last week. I was truly happy to see his hot Ecuadorian ass.

K, got a lot press calls to make.

-Ernie

PS: what the fuck is it with me and Bathrooms?

PS ALSO: at Steppenwolf they have their Tony's on display. I saw 3 real life Tony's ya'll. They were...so..close..within my reach...yet so far way.

PS LAST THING: apparently i'm a fat ass